By:
Marini
Weight
is just a number…yet we do need to worry about it if the numbers keep
increasing with no limit. I have been struggling to lose weight for the entire
of my life. When I was a little girl I was thin. I can remember that time, such
a lovely girl (yuck) but when I was 9 years old I was starting to put some
weight on me and it continued until present day…I mean, now…haha…so pathetic. I don’t know what to say, my appetite towards
food was so “crazy”. I felt hungry all the time. The feeling of desire to eat
food seems like I can die if I don’t eat a lot. Supposedly, we need to eat to live not live to eat. If I
make this phrase as principle in my life may be I will not become like this.
Well, nobody to be blamed. Blame myself of course. I cannot blame my late
mother for cooking a lovely meal, oh yes my mother was a good cook. She was
trying to remind me about controlling my food intake but my father supported me
and yet I cannot blame my father too. He always tells me to eat whatever I want
to eat because when I get sick, when I am getting older I cannot eat delicious
food anymore. Point was taken and here I am stuck with this heavy body.
Now,
let me tell you my story, a story of my journey to lose weight and still
struggling to lose weight. I never take
seriously about my body until I was in college. So, I have been chubby for many
years and I don’t even care about my looks… my appearance. I felt happy with my
life although sometimes it felt hurt when people insulted me about my weight. I
never workout and if I did that, it was for fun not for losing weight so I
didn’t care about what I ate. This happened until I wanted to further my
studies in degree. I need to do the medical checkup before registered at my faculty
so I hopped up on the weight scale and the number had frightened me. I was
freak out when I looked at the number. It was 79kg! That was my heaviest
weight, I think. Hence, the doctor asked me to watch out my diet and he asked
me to lose some weight. It was a wakeup call for me. I felt so embarrassed at
that time. When I calculated the BMI, yes…I was overweight. From that moment I
started to work out-jog, aerobic and I said good bye to RICE. I did it in a few
months. Well, I started getting busy with my studies and I exercise now and
then. Unfortunately, there was no change. The scale was not showing any
decreases of my weight. Then, I gave up.
To make
long story short, I was 75kg when I finished my Master. It meant that I lost
only 4kg in 5 years… DAMN… At that moment, I didn’t mind at all about my
weight. Just let it be…Then, I got a job. In my first year serving in my post I
was determined to lose my weight because I wanted to get married. Hahaha..so I
consumed LAMI (please don’t take
this…this product has been banned. It is not good to our body)…but this product
was so efficient, I lost 10kg within less than 3 months. Everyone at home was
surprised to see me. 65kg ok…I never been at that number for a long time. I was
so happy. I can wear L size cloth (before that XL,XXL)…I can feel that I was
beautiful and my self-esteem became high.
Then, I
got married… I gained weight again. I never step on the scale because I didn’t
want to feel disappointed but I knew that I gained weight because I cannot fit
perfectly in my cloths anymore. Furthermore, I cannot fit my engagement rings
too. After that I continued diet and workouts and I experienced yo-yo effect. In
conclusion, within 4 years of my marriage I didn’t realize that I was
overweight and the same thing happened to my husband too. We put on so much
weight together.
One day
in 2012,I would like to donate blood. The nurse asked me to step on the scale
and I was so shocked to see the number. 84kg…that was the heaviest weight I
ever archived in my entire life (I think)…
At that moment, I feel my world is so dark, I feel empty… Ok, something needs
to be done. I started diet again…no carbo at all, I don’t eat rice…just
vegetables, fruits and protein. Workout…on and off…I did this about a few
months. Nothing had happened. Again, yo-yo effect. July 2012 I was 87kg. Damn…mencarut
lagi.hahaha. (This happened because although I didn’t eat rice I couldn’t guarantee
that what I ate was healthy…chicken with fat on it, vegetables fried with too much
oil, fish cooked with coconut oil..etc)
I always see doctors to do
medical checkup and guess what the doctors had said? I need to lose weight so
that my period will stabile and it will be easier for me to get pregnant. Ok, point
is taken. So I decided to take it seriously. I started to consume Alpha Lipid SD2…one
unit is RM150. I consumed 5 cans of SD2 and I just lost 5kg only meanwhile
other people can lose about 4-5kg with only 1 can. I spent almost a thousand
ringgit. I need to mention here, during consuming SD2, the user cannot eat
carbo at all, no sweet drinks even fruits. We need to eat vegetables and
protein only. So can you imagine how slow my metabolism is? After I lost 5kg, a
lot of my friends noticed my changes even my students noticed that too. So, I
stopped consumed SD2, it is not worth it to continue. I did some research on
why SD2 is not effective for me. I found out that people who is suffering with
unbalance hormone is not suitable to consume SD2. It will not give you any
benefit. No wonder my body cannot cooperate with SD2. After that I tried
Shaklee (Lecithin,Herblax,Omega Guard and Alfafa). Bad result… I just lost 1-2 kg only. Buang
duit…Furthermore, I was not discipline enough while consuming Shaklee. In conclusion,
any product slimming is not suitable for
me. (because of the hormone, I think but I wonder how LAMI was effective
for me). #$^%#!(mencarut dalam hati)
When I lost 5kg after consumed
SD2, I started my old bad habit again. Eat a lot…because I was so happy and I
was satisfied when I lost 5kg(80kg at that time). My bad-eating-habit continued
until I gained 85kg. Sedih balik,podacit. Then, starting in May 2013 I started to jog
every evening and control my diet without taking any supplement and slimming
product. I set my new goal. I did a lot of research regarding of losing weight
in a safety way. Biar lambat asal selamat,kan. The only way to lose weight is
by exercise and diet. The safe weight loss is 0.5-1 kg in a month because If we
lose weight drastically, it will harm our internal organ. I lost weight but
very slowly because I have low metabolism. I set my target to lost 2kg in a
month, it is enough for me. Fortunately, I lost 8kg within 3 months (76 kg). I
was so happy BUT after raya I gained 2kg. Biasalah time raya melantak
makan. About a few months I maintain my
weight -78/79kg. There are times, I stopped workout and eat rice because I’m
still in treatment for IUI.
2014… still struggling with my
weight. I stopped workout starting from January to March because I missed my
period. I thought I was pregnant. Of course I gained weight after doing nothing
but eat..eat…eat. March 2014, I was 82kg. I started again my routine. I am still
targeting losing 2kg in a month. I lost
3 kg (79.4kg) in 3 weeks. Amazing! In May 2014, I stopped my routine for 3
weeks because I was performing IUI and my weight was 80.7kg on 26/5/2014. It was
weird because usually if I didn’t work out for a long time I will gain so much
weight but this time I gained 1.3kg only. Amazing… my body was behave. Hahaha…
This week(26/5/2014-30/5/2014), I
am fasting(ganti puasa). Today is the third day. On the first day I did aerobic,
the second day… I jogged. Today I don’t feel like doing any exercises. Nak rileks.
Timbang berat…79kg. Wow, amazing… I lost 1.7 kg only in 3 days. That is the
power of fasting+workout. My aim was
losing 1 kg in this week but I lost more than 1kg already. I am so happy but I
must be careful because I will stop fasting starting from tomorrow. This Saturday
is my official weigh in. I really hope the number will make me happy. That’s it. This is my journey of losing
weight and I am still struggling with it.
My goal: In the end of this year
= 70kg (9 kg more to go)
Motto: lose 2kg in a month but
effort like 1 kg 1 week (4kg in a month)
Method: Exercises and diet plus
discipline.
Motivation: I want to get
pregnant (that is my first important reason) and I want to wear
my engagement rings.
Summary
July 2012 = 87kg
Present day (28/5/2014) = 79kg
Total lost = 8kg within 2 years.
(because of the yo-yo effect)
GOOD LUCK, MAR. YOU CAN DO IT.
I will update my story soon.
Hopefully I will post my successful story. In sha Allah.
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